Sorry for the typos. Just needed to post hoping maybe someone reads it

Weell, GM or maybe Good afternoon. It’s 12/13/25 at 3:58am in Texas. Another maybe 10-15th br3eak up in [Would be] 8 months in 2 days. 

Still DK how we got here. I really fucing tried this time. Or at least maybe I didn’t. II am so fucking confused and dumbfounded about this break up/relatipnship that is no longer. 

It’s so fuking hard dating with a 4 year old being a single mom. Got fired  for some BS I an take about later uf you’d want/  Went from making around $10k/ month to unemployment. 

Granted I have savings, but still. I started to fix die me now ex started taking advantage of my “money” that I don’t have. 

It baffles me everyday how much some ,esp. moms giggling a carer and we still don’t get the fucking credit we really deserve. Mom

S are responsible for everything. Why?

Chapter 2: Libnely - Justin Bieber. One shitty fucking powerful word. God speed

Chapter 3: I wish I could describe how I felt right now. My boyfriend and I officially broke up.  I’m not the type of girl who writes anything but dumb fucking notes to myself I’ll never read.  I’m crying walking right ow ad then find myself in the kitchen starring at nothing. Then come back here. I have been trying to wrap at least one of my son’s Christmas gifts presents for the last IDK, 3 hours? 

I can’t focus, I’m heartbroken, lost my BF and best friend in one night. Again, a single, 37YO with a four year old boy. All the other moms either down on me or feel sad/bad or petty me for me. 

Worst part, I feel like so fucking terrible for intriguing B to my ex. Im such a shitty mom. I know crazier women out there have been married/engaged multiple times, and yet, maybe I am just lost cause. Which brings me back to my son. He deserves the best. IDK what to do. 

There is so many typos b/c I am just so sad it’s really over. And now I don’t even know what to say to my son when he asks about where my ex is..

My son is with is father right now. [NARC] like for real. I am sure he’ll be thrilled to hear my ex is out of the picture. Stilll no job, no wonder a man can’r love me Least that it’s what it feels right now. I’m lying on the floor with my dog right now. Trying not to cry to upset her. She’s literally been my best friend for the last 11 years. 

I dono’t know what I’d do without her this second until my son is back in mt arms and makes me forget abut this shshitty fucking relationship and break up. Just so fortunate he ws not here to witness any Arguing. 

If anyone is reading this, or tryin to with alll the fuckin typos, thank you. 

P.S. My face is burning from using a new retinal cream on my face and my face feels like it is on fire from my tears ahhhhh :) 

- K