I'm at work and I feel so suicidal and depressed

Hi there, using my boyfriend's account rn. I work from home as an online chatter I am 24F I posted here just a while ago, I cannot afford to let go of this job, but doing it right now is making me wanna kill myself which is weird because this job is a-ok for me they're not that strict but It's hard for me to function I just need to get through the week without killing myself

please help