Mental sides / testosterone

How to people find the mental sides or change in character on TRT ?

Full disclosure I did do TRT+++

But for lot of the time was on 110mg and another stretch on 140mg

Pre “TRT” levels were low 300’s free

Anyways I didn’t like level or confidence and feel good test gave me. I did at the time but looking back now not sure I wanna feel like that. I’m off test now.

Problem was I stopped worrying much about shit I prob should be worried about eg full extent of work responsibilities etc

After year on test found lot of stuff at work getting messy.

I didn’t much care when my free test levels were 800

Now I’m off test I care a whole fucking lot and am majorly stressed about it - still clearing up the mess of 12 months on TRT, 4 months out after ceasing it

But scared to jump back on it. Yea it makes me feel great but a little too care free