Got back together with my ex and feel like my body is rejecting him F18 M22

My ex broke up with me over communication issues, it was a 4 month relationship but one with potential I kept thinking that if we just talked differently to each other, listened more, and genuinely tried to want to fix things it would've been different As he is a very nice person.

In the next 3 months I went through healing and putting myself back into the world again through friends. However there was one night when I was weak, and needed comfort and reinsurance. I texted him and he was happy to give it

I asked for closure that we would never get back together but he didnt nessasary give it. He said that he has learned where his mistakes were and has grown sense then and gave a list of things that he would change next time around Main thing is communicating his feelings.

I was content and a bit happy and then we didnt talk for a few more days and I went drinking with friends. Came home the next day (I know this is going to sound horriable)

And was having the blues, music was playing and I was so sensitive to it I texted him again and told him I missed him and wanted to talk.

We ended up talking in person and immediately we kissed There wasn't any talking but just straight reconciliation.

We spoke a Lil bit about the situation but I dont believe that we really fixed anything.

I feel beyond tense, and stressed. My body has been aching and I have been feeling this sense of overbearing anxiety and brain fog I cant connect with him and when ever I let down all of my walls and become vulnerable there's still no connection there I love him as a person, he really is great. Attractive and has so much room to grow in life

However as of now I just dont feel that intense love I thought I would have. Its simple conversations Nothing deep and provoking No dates (he doesn't have a job) No home romance Im trying to go deeper but I just dont know what else to try.

Everything just feels so.. void right now?

I feel like im in a very very tense cloud and I dont know what to do.

I dont know even know how to bring this up to him without seeming like I was leading him on. Again I see potential but my heart just feels so burnt out.

Im thinking about getting therapy before I break up with him but my apointment isn't untill a month.