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13th of December Saturday 2025

I don’t know what to do other than this it’s the only solution I could come up with everything doesn’t seem the same anymore am tired I don’t see the point in anything everything is dull and depressing I have no hope in myself or my future am honestly disappointed in myself I have came to this am sorry for any inconvenience this cause anyone.All my life I’ve felt like I’ve been walking on thin ice I was not usually peaceful never in my childhood am sick of being the responsible one the mature one I don’t think if I told you how I was feeling you would listen I don’t want to be called spoil or ungrateful I would rather be dead.I must sound selfish I know how could she do this to us?to be honest I feel dead already I haven’t even considered that I know my siblings don’t deserve to lose their only sister or my parents for that matter but am sick of endless cycles of depression and sadness if this I what life is about I don’t want to be part of it.I’m sick of my crippling anxiety myself I can’t even function properly I feel so broken and disgusted with myself I hate everything about me I can’t even hold a normal conversation how will I handle anything when am old I won’t I never saw myself living old anyway.