Do you also feel like all those years were in vain?

Who gets married thinking about widowhood?

Today it's been 2 months and a half he's been gone

Looking back, it seems all those 6 years (almost 7), happiness, sorrow, money invested, kids, plans, projects, dreams, were cut off and what was left was this void...

I mean, I know "carry on, rebuild your life"... that's easy to say!

My neighbor lost husband, a son and a daughter in different times in her life

My grand aunt lost 3 husbands...

Why rebuilding was is going to be raken from us?

I enjoy my sadness when it embraces me, feeling lonely and not feeling like doing anything..

It feels better than investing in another thing that can be taken from me

If I have to live such loss again I'm gonna have a heart attack

I don'r feel like rebuilding anything

It seems we invested all we could... in vain