I can't stop myself sometimes.

I know this will gather harsh criticism but when I'm hypomanic I am extremely sexual and very blasé about putting myself out there. I struggle because I can know it's not what I want to be like but it's deep desire that feels like nothing has consequences and "I'm confident who cares." It's definitely not true and does not last. There's no gradient of social awareness, I just gun it and later I look back in shame. Is this a character flaws or my disorder...I can't tell anymore.