Confusion in expresssssssion

Mai kuch likhna share Krna express Krna chahta hun aur nahi krta fir bass pata nahi kyun rukh jaata hun kahin meri dukhi side naa dikh jaaye I still have fear of judgement, however I know k ye nahi hona chahiye lekinnnnn

Mtlb scene itna simple hai k bass,

Nahi kehh paa raha hun, mujhe smjh nahi aa raha k bolun kese apni baat ko frame kaise karun 🙍 Kher chalo itna hi post krdeta hun, kuch naa se toh kuch hoga atleast shuru toh kr hi deta hun bekaar hi sahi.