Moving to another country for a new job and for my boyfriend is draining me

Not sure why I’m even posting this, I just feel super overwhelmed with everything.

In January I am moving to another country for a job, and to live with my boyfriend who already works in that city. I’ve always dreamed of working there and I’ve fought, studied and worked alot to get a position like this even before him, so I should be excited but I’m not. I’m tired and my brain hasn’t even comprehended what’s gonna happen.

I’m tired of trying to find flats for us from my home, as my boyfriend works alot and does not care about administrative stuff. I’m tired of worrying I won’t have a place because the market is super competitive, everyone is moving around the New Year and I cannot visit the apartments as I cannot be there yet. I am tired of the lots of paperwork and administrative bureaucracy stuff at my old job that I need to do before I can leave. I am tired of flying to my boyfriend on the weekends as I still have more time to do so than him. I am tired of him not coming home for a month as it’s “not worth it to him” to see me for 2 days on a weekend and he’d rather spend it at his dorm before Christmas.

I am tired of feeling like I am alone in all this. If I were single, I’d just book a room in a dorm for myself but we are trying to live together and he didn’t make any effort apart from visiting a single apartment and I am the one begging him to send me the papers and shit so I can start the booking. He’s introverted and is tired of human interaction easily so for him it doesn’t matter that we won’t see each other for 1,5 weeks. But I am alone with saying goodbye to my friends and family, meanwhile trying to manage everything.

I waited all my life for this opportunity but I am not excited at all. I am just tired and sad.