I feel disgusted?

Hey so. i got a weird problem. i previously caught my man lying to me about not watching porn and i found on his phone sites and sexy girls on apps. now, i feel disgusted to think about having sex with him. we did it one time and he kept telling me that im pretty and i just started crying. i love that man but the thought about it or his dick is just making me feel disgusted and uneasy. like i’m happy around him and i really love him, i tried to forgive him and fuck this situation away from my brain but i just can’t. i feel disgusted knowing that he did it while watching other girls knowing that he got my shit on his phone. he even watched it on the night of my birthday. for me sex is a real intimate thing. and for poen me personally i only watch it when single. and i told him countless times that i found girls on my exs phone and i don’t watch porn i hate it so much, i hate lust. and he knew, yet he still did it because “he’s a man” and “i don’t want to have sex”.