I am able to get over it Part 2

After that it keeps repeating the same thing and I am regretting that I should have said this and that, when he threatened me since I have connections too. How can I get afraid of someone so smaller than me. C said proudly that I won’t be saying sorry to B when it started but in the end I said it, I let her down. He said he will get my whole family tree killed and I just said hmm where I should have said something else or protected my family by saying something, he asked me if he comes will you kill him and I don’t know why I just said no I won’t, but earlier I was the one who said it that I will kill you. I am coward and I don’t know how to handle situations and just freeze or get afraid. I just feel like I am not a man enough to protect my family and my girlfriend.

I don’t know how to vent it, I have written things told my girlfriend, she is supporting me and saying it is okay, it happens when you don’t know what to do.

But now I just want to beat the shit out of him, I just wanted to call again and abuse and tell him that I am not afraid and do whatever you want to do. I am so furious and regretful that I am. It able to focus on thr things I should focus