is petting ur cat when she don’t wanna be pet lowkey assault?

i’m faded n was tryna snuggle my cat, & started thinking.. when she’s not in a cuddly mood & im tryna force pets & snuggles…. am i assaulting her?? like this is fcked up but is that how r*apists feel when? like i just wanna love on my kitty so bad after not seeing her for a few days, even if she “not in the mood” , then i was thinking wtf that is prolly what they think?! i’ve also kinda been assaulted 2x & the thought that i even for a second felt that way, is making me feel sick & keep thinking abt it & fixate on how horrible thinking similar to them is🤮

can someone make me feel better am i high or do i need to stop petting my precious tuxedo kitty cuz im violating her😭