I am 24 years old. At the age of 17, I could see my peaceful future  I was about to become a pilot, I had a really beautiful girlfriend, I was the captain of my school volleyball team, had lots of friends  and then bang, I became paralyzed below the chest on my 18th birthday.

People used to come to my house for movie nights, just to help me spend my time. Now, they don’t even know if I’m alive or not. My father once told me that everyone’s life  including mine  would have been better if I were dead. I don’t blame him at all; honestly, it feels legit sometimes.i chosen to become a pilot because I wanted to travel the different parts of the world,now it's been many years since I went to 2nd floor of my house.

My parents are now in their old age, and I have to ask them for even the tiniest things. I’m unemployed. I once tried for a government exam  and , but later I got rejected, as my disability didn’t meet the job’s standards.

About my girlfriend :-  I manipulated her, broke up with her, stayed as her best, best, best friend, and helped her find the guy she truly deserves. She’s in Poland now. I don’t have a single friend left. All my friends were from school, and they’ve moved on with new lives and new friends. I don’t think I fit into society anymore.

A few days ago i found out I have got osteoporosis.

I do lot of excercise everyday but I don't get any results I feel like  fighting with a smoke.
I have also tried so many addictive things but I couldn't get addicted to anything basically nothing is making me happy 😓.

My psychologist advised me to share about myself.if you guys think you have a hard life then read this post.