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Basically, my boyfriend (21M), one of his close friends (21M) and I (20F) play video games about 4/7 nights a week. We usually hop on, play for a couple hours, then hop off. Lately we’ve been really into a newer game, Arc Raiders. (I will go ahead preface this by saying I have some pretty bag anger and mental health issues, something that stems from some pretty bad stuff in my past but something I am still constantly trying to be mindful of and work on) TBH I’m not very good at video games, but it has been extremely frustrating these past few weeks when we all play together. They got the game a month or two before me and had time to level up and get further ahead in the game than me. Not a big deal. The thing is I feel like when we play they always leave me behind, going off ahead of me or stopping on the way somewhere and not saying anything to me. I usually end up dying because I don’t have their help killing someone/something and then they always blame it on me for not being with them. If it’s not that, then they usually end up looting everything good and keeping everything better they find for themselves instead of helping me out here and there. Anything good I DO get it’s either because they don’t need it, or because I don’t say anything and stash it. I know it’s just a video game like my bf said to me, but I’ve honestly rage quit a few times because I get so frustrated over the fact it feels like I’m just dead weight to them. They say they’re laughing with me but always make jokes about it and I constantly feel like I’m the butt of them when we play. I got super upset and brought it up to my boyfriend, and he pretty much just told me it’s because I don’t pay attention and turned it around on me. I ended up getting heated, and yelled at him over it which I know is immature, but I’m tired of expressing that I don’t really enjoy playing with them anymore because of the way they treat me when I do, and being shut down or dismissed. It’s the only thing I have to look forward to after a long day recently, and I have no one else to play with. I love playing with them, but like I said it’s just been really frustrating recently. AITO?