Chemo in two days

I start chemo in two days. Two days till I have to endure all of that. I'm fucking scared and I keep breaking down. I'm trying my best to look at positives but it's hard to see through all the bleak news I keep getting. They gave 60% odds that it works. Which is good but not great. There's so many rules to follow, I have to have my own dhishware separate and washed individually so no one gets sick, I can't kiss my husband, I have to clean the bathroom after every use and public bathrooms are right out. It's going to be absolute hell and I'm dreading it. I have trouble sleeping thinking about it. I'm going to miss holiday celebrations including my baby's 1st birthday because I may not be well enough to go and I can't be around people that will get me sick. I don't know if I can do this but I have to try....