tonight

before i sleep gonna down all my ambien, paracetamol and cough syrup and hope it takes me out.

been cutting myself since August, it looks so pathetic on my arms now. everyone said they gave up on me. im glad there's nobody to stay alive for anymore.

i dont even have the motivation to write a suicide note. i dont think my parents deserve that much. i don't really care if it will get better. i don't care if i'll just be another number. im jjst perpetually tired