Frustrated

Just frustrated in general at life and people in my life. People make me feel like shit, like I’m lazy & i don’t do shit, but make me be the person to take care of EVERYTHING.

Like i wake up and go to sleep with my child every day and yes i have a partner who does not have a “job” they delivery service and have 3x less bills than i do. All while i pay it all. I take care of our child full time during my vacation. Mind you, while I’m working i work 7 days a week half the year so i can’t even enjoy a moment to myself or even to get things done. Because once i do have time to get something done , it’s the weekend when i gotta go see my family or im just mentally/psychically exhausted to even do anything when i have my little window of 10 minutes. And half that time gets used for me to shit then my child is back up and it’s a whole repeating never ending cycle. My partner don’t see me. I tell him my daily struggles and all the shit i need to get done while he wants to be out there delivery driving even when he don’t need to be.

I take the time to go over all our finances, which i manage , i pay all our household bills and the hospital bills from having OUR baby but whatever lol. I plan all the doc visits, fun things for us all , clean the house by myself daily and at that it takes me almost 3 days to fully clean one room because i don’t get help in between taking care of her either. I feel fucking lost. Unseen. And just pissed. I wanna rage out. My phone is a pos everything goes wrong all the time. And all the shit i gotta do and I’m laying on the couch typing this out getting pissed at my pos phone thinking about hiring a massage therapist lol. Like wtf is life. For a woman especially. Like the shit i read/see about other men is all true like half yall are fucking blind to what a woman deals with and at least mine can’t even come home and say hey let me help u or let me give u a foot massage. No all i get is “I’m tired too” 🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴

Like buddy. Ur not constantly needed. U have to worry about one thing and that’s making money for ur bills. Which i worked out for u. Like I’m tired of being a mom to a grown fucking man. I’m just pissed. Sorry it’s long idc if yall even read but at least i got something. Out .