Marriage Search Dilemma (Venting)

This year I started to take marriage search seriously, I've been on apps, I've posted on ISO, Informed friends and family so that if there's a potential, they know they'd tell me.

But unfortunately, I came to be very disappointed, and it placed a far larger mental load on me than I expected. People I've met on apps were mostly very weird, and the ones that were a good match (2 people) just one he ended things because of height difference and one because we had different views on marriage.

I've started "taking it seriously" because I have gotten just 3 proposals throughout my life and none of them got anywhere past the first meeting, and I haven't had anyone approach me for marriage or to even get to know me... not at work (I worked for a short period of 3 months when I graduated), not anywhere I ago, and not even through family or friends.

It kills me inside, I feel like I am not worthy of marriage or that there is something wrong with me...

It doesn't help that my family was EXTREMELY conservative with me growing up so I only spoke to like so so few men throughout my life and I never had any male interactions, always shut everyone off because I feared it's "haram", always never had any male friends... etc.

And where has that got me?? All my friends who dealt with men normally are married and on their second or third kid, living happily Masha'Allah, and I'm just here waiting on a man that may or may not show up, and even if he does, I know I'll be an awkward mess and scare him off because I genuinely don't know how to attract or deal with men!

I feel stuck, hopeless and just depressed. I don't know what to do or where to search or how to approach this anymore. It doesn't help that my parents are completely against me working or going out "too much" in general, so people don't even get a chance to see me!

I Feel like I'm realizing this problem too late, I feel like I should have addressed it and tried to (show myself more?) in order to get noticed, or done ANYTHING about it... I don't even know why I'm writing this here, but maybe someone went through the same situation and can help, or maybe you have some advice for me on what I should do.