Stop telling me that I'm sick or that I need to seek professional help, like I don't already know that.

I vent my frustrations and my emotion here because I badly need someone to validate my suffering, I wish for someone to understand what I've went or going through. Not for someone to tell straight to my face that I'm sick and should seek professional help. Of course I am sick, otherwise why would I be posting my thoughts here. And if you think professional help is accessible to everyone in this God forsaken country, you're wrong. The free mental health care in this country is a mess. Tell me you feel sorry, tell me you understand me, tell me it will not be selfish for choosing to end my suffering by offing myself! Tell me I have the right to end myself regardless of the people who are going to get hurt.