I'm 16, I'm trying one more time

I won't write all my life here, just how I feel since 3 longs years. I'm depressed, I want nothing, I am nothing. Nobody really knows what I am thinking. I dont have friends anymore. Most of my peers disgust me. I feel alone empty and anxious. I don't want to kill myself but I want to die in an accident doing something dangerous sonI guess it's the same thing.

I'm not doing this nonsense anymore. If I can't fix it, I'l die. I'm begging you, what can I do ?