Am I trans

I (15) struggle with my identity since years now. When I was 12 I first came out as Trans to friends and school. At school I got bullied heavy and at home no one understood so I kinda went back into the closet. Now I am only a boy or Gender questioning online. I thought I dont care what people call me but some nights ago someone said they dont see me as a guy, as a "joke" and I nearly cried. My friend said today "I thought you were a girl" when I accidentally called myself a boy. I really have no problem with my body or clothes or hair tho. I wear what I want and have my hair like I want. Sure sometimes I wish I had a Penis or a flat chest, but doesnt every women sometimes wish that? I wish I was in an mlm relationship but I know I can never be. To be honest, I am terrified. Scared of being bullied again, and of my family not understanding! My brother is transphobic and I got over 10 cousins and over 10 uncles and aunts!! Please help me, at nights like these I feel so helpless.( ´-｀)