How did you move on after death of partner?

Hello,

For those of you that lost a boyfriend/partner/spouse at a later age in life, how did you move forward and did you ever find love again?

I’m in my late 30s and recently lost my boyfriend to overdose/suicide and he was the love of my life. I don’t think I’ll ever find that feeling or type of love again since it took me so long to find it (and I have been dating for 20 years).

I am unsure how you move forward grieving the life you had and the future you thought you were going to have. I am trying to figure out how to accept I may not get the life I wanted, or at least, I was grateful I had it for a short period of time and maybe that’s all I will be gifted with.