Recovery confession

I have been in recovery since July. I’ve been pulling since I was 10 years old, now nearly 21. If you met me on the street, you would never know I have trich. I now have a full head of hair, regrowth long enough to blend into layers. Eyebrows and lashes are full. But I occasionally still pull. I tell myself that I’m done with trich, but every few weeks I have a day or two where I pull for a few minutes. It’s so frustrating. I know that I’ve made it so far, but I want it to go away completely… I’m still afraid I can fall back into old habits. Is there anybody who’s recovered who still has their moments? Or can it really go away forever?