Struggling as a mom

Hello ladies,

I am 41 yo mom of three. For the context I have three boys(1, 9, 12) Having my last baby triggered several health issues and perimenopause all of which cause physical pain and discomfort daily. I was perfectly healthy and well before my last pregnancy. Things have been beyond challenging since we had our last child.

I started HRT two weeks ago which I don't feel much impact yet.

I realized my life has been nothing but exhaustion raising a toddler, pre-teen, and a teenager(all of them sounds daunting)and trying to function with poor health and dealing with aging all at the same time. I lost joy due to ongoing health problems and endless mom duties.

I feel overwhelmed and depressed. Still here for my children.. Is anyone out there who understands all of this? I feel so alone.. Thank you for reading