I'm tired, boss.

I've been dealing with PTSD all my life. Recently I got a whole new trauma from the person I loved and trusted the most. This holiday season has been absolute torture.I'm medicated and on a waiting list for therapy but despite sleeping as much as can I am so, so tired. My body is riddled with cortisol and tensions and I find it exhausting just to wait out the days. I am mentally exhausted due to my racing thoughts. I am very close to giving up.