how do i battle this?

many tws, abuse !!

i just need advice.. i just turned 17 and im diagnosed with chronic anxiety, depression, extreme ocd, (and bpd but i just feel like there is so much going on that it could be a mistake) and i’ve been through psychiatry and therapy and they suspect audhd . my whole life has been really difficult being this way, and i’ve dealt with all the kinds of abuse and neglect growing up and to this day. right now i was kicked out of my stepdad’s being accused of so much stuff, i dont want to say specifics but ive gotten threatened horribly and he is extremely abusive. my entire family is pretty much ableist and in short im always expected and forced to be normal and how fucked up i am and i just get called disabled or that i need to stop “acting disabled.” im living in a bad place which is making it all worse, i cant function, everything hurts and is loud and i just cant execute a single thing. i dont feel real, i feel trapped and i cant ever get out of my head . i need to get a job and get out of here but every time i try i fail and i just end up bedrotting again. it is horrible for me here and i need to get out before i become homeless but all my symptoms are heightened horribly and i just need advice on how to get on my feet in a way that actually helps my mental situation. nobody believes in me