I kinda broke NC

Okay, so to be in context NC for me means not even check their (🥲) profiles. I blocked her profile everywhere, but his new boyfriend's profiles aren't blocked. So I did it. I didn't see much because she is blocked so the tagged contents aren't show up, so I went straight to incognito and started to type his name but I could stop myself there and turn back. I feel guilty for checking even this much and ah god I didn't want to. 4 months passed, I wouldn't get together with her again but fuck this shit is an addiction. I blocked her and now I'm here again, I kinda stalked. I fucking hate this shit, I want justice, I want revenge.