I don't want to lose my femininity but I'm not a put together type of women.

I'm messy, “not in a dramatic way,” I'm messy in an aesthetic way, I've tried very hard to follow the clean and proper type of femininity.

With their clean and organized closets and rooms.

Perfect hair and makeup, always have a good Mani and Pedi.

I can't even pull off a super clean liner.

Not gonna lie, I get self-conscious

Because I feel like a pick messah again,

not being a neat and tidy type of woman.

I wish I could be those clean girls who look good in minimalism, and are posh and proper.