Day 6 back to work

I used the fact that I had so many days off around Christmas plus Wednesday and Thursday off this week to jump off and I'm currently on day six and back at work. It's a very physical job and it is wrecking me. But its just manageable enough that I'm ok and time isn't at a crawl anymore. I'm basically out of the woods but I'm aching and getting hot flashes real bad in this warehouse lmao. Mentally I feel great. I know the worst is behind me, but I'm definitely glad I have another two days coming up here where I can get more protein, water, rest etc and not have to factor in work.

My meals no longer consist of tomato soup with milk (withdrawal standard for me since my heroin days) and beef jerky lol. My ass is still raw but stools finally normal tmi. Everything is baseline almost. I know I still got 2-3 more icky days and then it's whatever. Whoever is with me on this journey let's keep going. I'm gonna give up beer too on the 1st and really lock in for the year. I'm not getting any younger and my brain is already starting to get back some of its drive.

I had to delete all the dating apps because the recharged sex drive is fucking with my perception tbh and I think I would just be switching one dopamine hit for the other idk. Next few months are just about focus.

Who else is here and with me? If you're on day 3 and it started to jump on your back just wear the weight it's temporary. Last night was the first night I didn't have nightmare stress dreams and waking up multiple times a night and peeing nonstop. Keep going.