I want to die

I can't handle my life anymore. I'm depressed, lazy, and so socially anxious that my retail job is a nightmare. I've been crying thinking about the fact I have to go back.

I'm trans but I have no hope of transitioning. I worry way too much about what other people think of me to even consider coming out. I'll just die living as a man.

I need to build up the courage to kill myself because I'm too much of a pussy to and I see no other way out. I'm done trying to deal with all of this, I just want it to end.