25 [F4M] #Anywhere Crazy girl browsing Reddit at work

Some desires I want to push as far as I can:

Anal obsession. Gooning my ass constantly, wherever I am. Being an ass and mouth only slut.

Self-loathing. Not secretly liking it deep down. Just being miserable. Humiliated to extremes. Degraded. Be a very public pet girl. Do extreme drugs and alcohol. Feel guilty.

Bullying. Bully other girls. Sabotage them. Backstab them. Be a cunt to them.

Patriarchy. Be sexist. Build up men at the expense of girls. Making women’s lives worse. I think we should be unhappy, ashamed, humiliated and miserable. Make my workplace unbearable for women. Be a Ghislaine Maxwell type.

Sluttiness. Goon obsessively. Watch porn. Fuck. Raise my body count.

I need to find a man for a long term relationship who can handle my crazy, my lack of trust, and can guide my sex drive to extremes that ruin my life and make me miserable. Make me be immoral and self loathing. My self image was distorted when I took an iq test and scored low. Im very anxious and mistrusting.