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Disordered eating yay! I am eating a cucumber. I want to kill myself. If there is no euthanasia or disability benefits at the end of this, I am going to forcefully make a condition where I can count. I have to keep at least 3,500 in my bank account so I can selfpay it. So exciting. I just need to make my diabetes worse and increase my cholesterol. Maybe I can get a stroke. I'm sad that i will be in a lot of pain but it could be worth it. Idk. I hope healthcare gets better.