how do you handle your insomnia/anxiety before you sleep?

I feel like I am starting to really become aware of the reasons why I become depressed or why was I even depressed even as a kid back then. However, I also feel like I have this impulse or bigla-bigla nalang na ginagawa ko (developed this habit during the pandemic) whenever I try to sleep and suddenly remember the past, something embarrassing or something that I feel guilty about. So kapag kasi nakapikit na mata ko at antok na ako and may naalala akong something that I feel anxious/guilt of, bigla bigla kong kinukuha phone ko really fast, (something like when you grab your friend when you feel embarassed or smth) so i do it to try and distract myself. There's even this part where because I couldn’t get over it (but want to), I keep doomscrolling or just scroll aggressively, trying to find a video that perhaps may ease these thoughts.

Dati, sabi ko okay 'to kasi nawawala sa isip ko, kaso overtime di na sya healthy, kasi bukod sa masama sa mata ko, feel ko mas nadadagdagan din yung pagkadepressed ko (kunyare seeing videos where people are happy/stable). But back then, I wasn't aware of these. And I'm glad I getting to realize it na, ang hirap lang i-control kamay ko, kasi bigla-bigla nalang akong nagre-reach out sa phone ko kapag nagising na naman ako sa thoughts. Ang hirap din kasi pabago-bago sleeping sched ko, naguguluhan na nga ako minsan. And gustuhin ko man mag meds ulit, wala talaga kaming pera pambili ngayon (I was only able to access a limited free consultation session). Ayun lang, ako lang ba nakakaranas ng ganito? What do you guys do to sleep?