I have a lot of trouble making friends who play Fortnite

I know this may sound like I’m trying to seek attention but I’m not. I legit don’t have that many people to play Fortnite with. I’m not the kind of person who is really open and outgoing when it comes to meeting new people. I’ve always been an outcast for years and I always had low self esteem especially when I tried making friends online. The main reason why I can’t make friends on Fortnite is because there was one time I met someone who was the coolest person I ever met. Him and I vibed with each other instantly and we were such good friends until I ruined everything by accident and I’ve been holding that incident against me for months.

Ever since that incident, I’ve been too nervous when trying to make friends now and my roommate is always trying to encourage me to try and make friends who play Fortnite so I have other people to play Fortnite with but I just can’t. I’m too shy and anxious around new people and I hate that by myself. I wish I was more outgoing and comfortable when I talk to new people. I try my best to be myself and when I do manage to make friends, they just block me and ghost me a week later and it’s to the point where I have no reason to try again and again to make friends.

My roommate has so many friends that she plays with all the time and she has the best time of her life when she plays with them and I’m not saying that I’m jealous, I’m really happy for her but I just wish I had Fortnite people in my life as well.

I’m sorry this post is so long and nobody has to read all of it. I just wanted to share what I’m going through and if you ever want to try to be my friend and play Fortnite with me, I’m gonna try and be more outgoing and open so I don’t make a fool out of myself. I know the only person I can be is myself.

I usually prefer chatting with new people on discord but if you don’t have that, it’s okay