Sharing anything with my mom no longer becomes true.

I'm my parents only child, and they always say they want the best for me. But I've been noticing that whenever I share anything with my mom, it no longer happens. There have been quiet a few instances. idk if I'm finding someone to put the blame on for my failure or if it's a form of coping mechanism.

Soon after I finished my senior year I told my mom I wanted to study in this particular city, she was totally fine with it and told me to try my best, but guess what I couldn't even attend the written test for the uni because the institution conducting the test messed up. I had to forcefully join college in a city I never wanted to go.

Now for masters I wanted to move out of the country and I told my mom about my plan and she said the same, "do your best", again things went wrong. Whenever I share with her about my upcoming internship interviews, every single time I get rejected. But, there was this one internship interview I forgot to tell her about, and I got accepted! I just can't ignore the pattern. Recently I told her about my 2nd plan to apply for masters, now I'm scared and I regret sharing about it with her.

Today I had an internship interview and I had to tell her about it so that she doesn't come into my room mid interview. I got rejected.

Sometimes I take the rejection by thinking it's a redirection, maybe it's not meant to be, everything happens for a reason. But I just can't help but think about it.

Something else I've noticed is whenever I think about something happening, it doesn't happen, and when I think it won't, it happens. Everytime I hear about how manifestation helps people to achieve things in life, I wonder why it's the opposite for me.

What's your opinion and anyone with similar experience?