Lamenting how hard this is

I pulled the trigger and got a flip phone last year.

First I just used my iPad when I needed to then it became a problem and when it died I was actually relieved.

Then I needed to sell something so I grabbed my old iPhone and it went downhill quickly. I keep it around the house and just stare at it.

I have great months. I delete instagram and Facebook. I successfully dumb it down and put on protections only my husband can take off (my poor husband). Then I’ll need them turned off something and BOOM I’m on reddit and substack and spending 5 hours on my phone ignoring my beautiful children.

I‘m just so tired of it. I have no self control with it. It‘s so embarrassing and I pride myself of being a good mom but i cannot kick this even for them. My poor husband is so tired of this discussion because he’s been supportive of it all and tried so hard to help me but I always fail anyways.

Tell me just to throw this phone into the river by my house and never look back. I can go to the library if I need the internet that badly!