F14 I hate my dad , but I don’t want to go to orphanage or something

Idk how to start, I am living at some poor neighborhood, we are poor ourselves, My mom died when I was little , I don’t remember her and idc tbh. I am an only child in my family, and I have a dad. I hate him and vice versa. He works in a factory and alcoholic, every day he drinks beer or vodka, and there always his friends who are the same, they are creeps and I am afraid of them. Sometimes when he is not in the mood he can spank my ass with belt, not punishing, just when he wants it. I don’t have much to eat and I work on evenings , I am cleaning dishes, at nights I try to do homework and learn some stuff a little bit, I have bad grades but I am still studying the subjects that I love. My classmates bully me and teachers never help me because I am that weird girl. I want to have better live, but I am afraid that it will be worse if I go to orphanage, especially in my country, now I have freedom but I know that I wouldn’t have a good future, and may end up like prostitute or alcoholic mother, and I love to smoke and drink a little bit alcohol, and if I would be in orphanage I wouldn’t do this or other activities. When I went to psychologist in our school she said that I should be thankful and there some people that struggle worser than me, and I think she gossips with teachers about things that I told her :(

I don’t know if there would be good advice , I just wanted to express my feelings