Not sure what to do. I believe my Mom is toxic and that my dad is emotionally absent or unsupportive.

To start I want to say I don’t know if my Mom and/or Dad are narcissist. I’m sure they’re nothing compared to a lot of folks on here, but I wanted to post this here because I’m not sure where else.

My Mom was emotionally and sometimes physically abusive to me as a kid and I’ve gotten her to acknowledge it over time. She has health issues and is severely overweight. My dad was always working or trying to avoid the family since a young age. Now they’ve started their own business and are not working as often, meaning I’ve got to deal with their loud arguments. In the past Mom would break objects and throw temper tantrums but now she “only” yells and makes violent (murderous) threats. I became disillusioned with my Mom’s “love” over time and there was a particular moment where I called her out for talking down on me which resulted in me sobbing and begging to be loved while she walked out the door and left for hours because she had a job that she didn’t need to go to. She also tells me all love is conditional when I’ve complained that our love feels transactional or otherwise fragile. Now she’s also been discouraging me progressing in life: getting a drivers license was a bad idea because of the insurance prices, getting a job is a bad idea because it will make her medication insurance cost more (by increasing household income). However she wants me to work for her and dad and is fully supportive of that.

Lately I’m realizing I’m not sure I wanna deal with my parents bullshit for the rest of my life, so I’m at odds for what to do. I have no starting place and the majority of jobs reject me. I’m also getting to be into my mid twenties soon.