Fighting to go forward and stop being stuck.

Hi Everyone,

I hope you are having a happy holiday.

I come from a very dysfunctional, toxic and abusive family and they programmed me to fail in life.

Even though I managed to get remarried and protect my child who is now a teen, I keep having issues because of this jealous and toxic family and the choices they programmed me to make in my life.

My question is: how to keep living life and doing things as normal when anxiety and stress overcomes me sometimes.

In Jan 2025, I gave myself a goal in terms of reading but I would read the same sentence over and over, unable to be in the moment. Sometimes, ity would be the same for a video. I would replay a scene again and again because my mind would be unable to stay concentrated,

I have had a number of sideration moments, with complete shock and I feel i am struggling to get out of it and get better. I am much better that during some traumatic events which were numerous and intense but I don't manage to enjoy life IN SPITE of what happened to me.

Any tips I could use? I managed to read a book about toxic families which made me realise that in spite of my shame, I am not alone and I am not crazy. I will carry on but sometimes, I just want to sleep. I do not want to take medication. Any advise is welcome.

Thanks ❤