Embarrassed to tell our family about #2

I am 10 weeks along with #2. My babies will be 18 months apart. It was a very unexpected pregnancy and it has taken me a lot of time to even accept that it’s real. I am a very “control” type of person, so this has sent me over the edge a little bit given I never envisioned being pregnant again so soon after my first. I am a big rules person and have a hard time forgiving myself for mistakes. So I’m really struggling with all of this. It’s hard for me to let go of how it was all “supposed” to go and accept that circumstances are just different now.

I am not looking forward to telling our family and friends, because I know they’re just going to mirror the same shock and awe I felt when I saw the positive test. I am dreading the “oh wow! So soon! That’s going to be tough!” comments. Because I know. I know it’s going to be tough, and I know it’s too soon. I have been feeling all those things already, and I really don’t feel like hearing it from others. Tbh I don’t know if I’ll even be able to keep it together when I tell people. I’m just so embarrassed to have had an accidental early pregnancy. I’m working on it in therapy, but I still have bad days.

Did anyone else feel this way? Did it get better?