I am emotionally exhausted from dating

I’m so tired. So deeply, freakishly tired of opening myself up, of the way I communicate my affection and my love, only to end up not being chosen, or left alone in the dark.

In all honesty, I put in so much effort. I try so hard to be understanding that I forget to set boundaries for myself.

Everyone says I’m gorgeous, that I’m a catch, that I’m rare, but I don’t feel that. People put me on this manic pixie dream girl pedestal, but I’m human too. I want someone to love me for my imperfections as much as my perfections. I want to experience what it feels like to be loved the way I love. And at this point, I don’t think I ever will in my lifetime.

I feel cursed. I feel used. I feel like I’ve already given everything I have, and I’m completely emotionally exhausted.

I just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay and that they love me wholeheartedly.