I’m confused because I made a post asking about FTM creators and someone asked if I’m a chaser or trans (16, guy)

The post went like this:

"Could someone recommend some FTM YouTubers or related content? (16, guy)

I’m asking because YouTube doesn’t really show me much except trans women content. I did find a few trans men creators before, but I stopped watching them lately and maybe someone else would be more my style ;P. I haven’t searched on my own because I’m afraid of running into some incel-type creators with weird views (idk, they exist). So if you know any FTM creators you’d recommend, I’d really appreciate it! ;P"

And now this ‘fetishizer’ label is really sticking with me, and I want to cry.

I was already worried about this before — especially when I imagined dating trans guys — and now I’m even more anxious. I’m scared to look at any trans content at all. What if I really am a chaser?

I think I might have some OCD-like thought loops (even though I’m not diagnosed), but I genuinely don’t understand what I did wrong. The possibility that I could be a chaser is really distressing, and it makes me want to cry. It’s just stressful

P.S. I'm trans and I'm saying this to avoid misunderstandings