I want to be spoiled for one day

Ive never had a card or presents from any of my exes. I never got that stupid heart necklace in school, i was never liked. I was signed off work and didnt get even a text from coworkers i thought were friends. I was hospitalised - no cards or flowers there, not even a text. I resigned, radio silence - and this is a place that does a big communal card and a gift basket of presents for every leaver. They also make a song and dance out of congratulations, maternity leave, commiserations, every occasion. I didnt get acknowledged on my birthday, didnt get any christmas wishes, and nothing about being ill or resigning.

Im not materialistic. But i would love to just have one day, one moment, where i got a card, some flowers, a box of chocolates, a plushie, a book or magazine, that stupid necklace, my nails done. Just to feel that sensation that someone actually cares. That im not invisible and unloveable. It does sound horrifically selfish. I just want to be LOOKED AFTER, just once.