My skin is making me spiral

I know this is a stupid thing to be upset about in the grand scheme of things, but in the year I’ve been trying to conceive, my formerly perfect skin went totally haywire and made me absolutely horrible looking. I finally got it under control in the past three months and was feeling good about myself for once, even if I was still infertile as fuck.

Now I’m doing birth control before starting a round of IVF, and I thought it would make my skin BETTER if anything (after all, my skin was effortlessly good on birth control before right?). NO. I look like I have the goddamn chicken pox. I hate this. It’s just gut punch after gut punch.