I’m unaware of what to do anymore

Every single time I get upset, for as long as I can remember, my immediate resort over any other thought is dying. It could be absolutely anything too, small issue? Death. Mildly irritated? Death. Anything that even comes as a slight inconvenience? Death. I’m 16 now going on 17 and this has been going on for years. The first times I can remember having thoughts like this was when I was around 8 but it would only happen over actual major issues or anything serious but more and more overtime I can’t help but want to die over any little inconvenience in my life. I should provide some better context and mention I come from an abusive household and family so I’d assume that takes some part into this, but even before things had gotten as bad as they are now it still never changes anything. I’ve had times in the past to where my life was perfectly fine with nothing specific bad happening at home, but no matter what I’ve always felt sad beyond my own belief and it only gets worse day by day. My friend tells me I might have a chemical imbalance going on with my brain and that I should consider taking some kind of medication but I’m unable to access any resources for personal reasons I won’t get into. Does anybody else on this sub deal with this too? If so, how are you handling it and did it ever get any better?