Is It Weird That I Want Trauma? (No Idea if This is The Right Place to Ask This)

I have no idea if this is the right subreddit to ask this question so I'm sorry for asking this but, I've noticed for the past few months that I have next to no trauma in my life. The only "trauma" I have is a relative (I'm not going to say who) hurting himself and the only way it affected me is by making me care about him more. So, I have been thinking and asking for trauma. I have no idea why because I know people who have trauma have a very hard time with life. People who have seen suicide or people who have seen their close relatives die all have trauma that completely change their way of life, and I could never want, but deep down I really want it. Some of my close friends have close to abusive fathers and have poorer lifestyles and I feel like it makes them so interesting. Like I want people to ask me about trauma or how I grew up, but if I tell them how I lived they're not going to give a shit; they want to hear trauma. I'm 50/50 with it though because I want a close relative to die for trauma, but I also don't want them to die because I love them. I am not at all trying to brag but rather am just trying to add context for help; I have a loving family and extended family, I live in the suburbs, I have great education, great school life and have no suicidal thoughts nor depression. The only thing I do have is mild anxiety and it doesn't affect me that much. I have basically the perfect life anyone could ask for. Again, I am not trying to flex, brag, or anything like that. So, why is it that I want Trauma? If anyone could help me snap out of it or tell me why I am thinking about this that would be great because I want to realize how great I have it. You could do it by sharing your trauma (Completely up to you because I know how trauma can be difficult to share,) or just help me. If this is not the right subreddit to ask this question, then could you tell me the right subreddit to ask and I'll delete it this in time.