AIO My ex bf pays my bills and I feel like I’m stuck in a difficult situation. He is 10y older than me.

I’ll be direct, we already lived together... he promised me the world and now that we’re in a long-distance relationship (different countries) he wanted to end it, but at the same time he’s still my “friend” and pays my bills (he took my job) and I feel like a hostage to him because food and transportation are all on his online credit card and I don’t leave the house (he sends the exact amount for the rent) and I feel bad if I try to go out with someone else because he still helps me but at the same time he doesn’t seem happy to be paying “and not sleeping with me”... he encouraged me for 3 years to stay home studying what I like and learning things that interested me...He always said that college was pointless, that at my age (I was 23) I could enjoy myself and “play” (I came from a life where I worked since I was 17, but the money wasn’t even enough to pay rent; in fact, I didn’t go to college because I needed to work). He made me close my social circle, so today I’m just friends with the girls I grew up with, like from school, etc., and I don’t even talk to them anymore. But the ones I had strong business connections with, he spoke so badly of them that I fought with all of them and distanced myself. And I don’t have any men on social media or in contact with them because I changed my number because of him. In short: today I only have contact with him and my family. I don’t even know where I would begin to find someone new (even though I don’t want to), and the pressure to get a great job that pays my bills is making me depressed... because I have no contacts to negotiate with or a helping hand in these moments. My luck was not getting married or pregnant. Today I’m 25, in February 26, and I don’t want to take any action that could hurt my dignity because of the stress. I’m pretty, but not being married at this age makes me even more depressed because when I met him... I was the one who gave him the chance, and I find myself chasing after him like a fool, waiting for the moment he’ll realize I want a future with him, but... it seems like he’s in this “relationship” against his will. Sometimes it occurs to me that after 25 you lose your “youth” and he’s just a..... 🚩