So relieved I broke up with him

Never should've said yes in the first place. I hardly ever feel a desire for romantic or sexual relationships, and the 3 or 4 months this lasted (after being friends for ~6) were unbearable. It weighs on me how much I didn't like it but I don't feel like I can tell anyone without them thinking I'm ungrateful for how caring he was.

I wonder if it's normal for people to be that incredibly clingy. Blamed himself bc I tripped once and broke a nail, and kept GRABBING my arm everytime he thought I could trip again. Kept giving me long ass pet names and such even after I confessed those tend to get me angry. Kept trying to hug me all the time even when it was obvious by my body language that I did not want a hug at that moment. Kept messaging me every single day. Every single thing I didn't want had to be said out loud and made me feel like an asshole because he was always trying to do stuff for, to, or with me. Liked explaining things too much (we're both first year students in a Physics career, I mean you can't try to explain fucking PITHAGORAS to me).

I felt like he liked the idea of me better than me. Always chanting that I was so perfect, so beatiful, so smart, told me he imagined the perfect woman for years and then found her in me. My mom says he's smitten because I'm a "complex and intriguing person" but I find he's desparate for someone to lay his feelings on. Very emotionally dependent. I think a lot of men are like that, they aren't good at sharing feelings with other guys so they rely on their girlfriends too much. I am just not made for that. I hated it.

I'm sad and angry because he wanted more from me than friendship. But this stupid situation was my fault.