Got my last shot in September. Haven’t struggled til now.

It’s not even anything WD related. It’s all mental and my brain feels completely dead. Nothing tastes good. Nothing sounds good. I don’t get any dopamine from my brain from being on subs for so GD long. I started craving benzos like crazy. Ordered some. Wife found them. (I was mad af. Still am. But honestly glad she did cause she flushed em) almost ordered more but didn’t. And since that happened I have literally been unable to feel any joy. I know my testosterone is low too so that don’t help. But I seriously haven’t wanted drugs this bad in like a decade.

Anything anyone has done would be appreciated. I would assume this is normal but wtf do I know. I wanted to die earlier.

Bless all yall