This is a poem that I wrote for my 14 year old daughter Deztini Hutchins after having no contact with her for the past 5 years

The most special girl I know
Was always able to steal the show
We were always two peas in a pod
The way we did things was ours but we were odd
You've went through so much that I haven't seen
And I promise I wish I could have been
You're 14 now and I know you not
But that little girl I haven't forgot 
Walking along your little hand in mine
Wanting to look just like me all the time
It breaks my heart, I miss you so
You're now a young lady I wish to know
Is there a boyfriend, a girlfriend? 
Have you had your first kiss?
These are the things that I didn't want to miss
I miss our time together being able to watch you grow
But it's been 5 years and you, I simply do not know
I'm hoping real soon that you'll reach out to me
And that finally I'll be truly happy 
Even if all it is at first is just some texts
My heart will soar above the clouds
And I won't rush what happens next 
I know that I should have fought harder 
I've realized that over the years 
But there was some that played on all my fears
The day that she adopted you I didn't want to die
And I'm sorry that I didn't say a more heartfelt goodbye 
My heart was breaking, my soul was dying inside
You had always seen me strong
But that was something I couldn't hide
I never meant for you to think that I gave you up so fast
And I must admit that is one pain 
That will always last
Even when I get to have 
Contact with you again 
My pain will still be there because 
For at least 5 years I lost my best friend 
I know that I don't really know you anymore 
Because of the time that has passed
But I know that the bond that we had
Was strong enough to last
I can still feel it and 
I think you can too
Just close your eyes, don't say a word
And reach deep down inside of you
It's in your heart, your soul
Your whole being
No matter what you've been told about me
From you I was never fleeing 
My love for you grows stronger 
Every day
I know that you're probably 
A little too old to play
But I'd love to go to the park
And sit on the swings 
And listen while you 
Tell me everything 
All that has happened 
Throughout the years 
And pay no attention to the tears
It isn't sadness not at all 
It will be happy tears 
That you'll see fall
I'm regretful that I missed all that time
But I've been told that you're doing fine
I wish that I could hold you
And hug you tight
And even though you're too old for it
I wish I could tuck you in at night
But that's just me
Remembering my little girl
My babygirl that was my whole world
I didn't give up
I was tricked and misguided 
It was me against all of them
Everything was one sided
I had no one in my corner
And was told "just do what they say"
I wish I could go back 
And fight harder that day
The day they legally 
Kidnapped you from me
I should have fought harder 
But I was afraid of the police, you see
I've stayed in Clarion 
For all these years
Just because I know you're here
I won't give up, 
Not now,
Not ever again 
I promise I still love you
Even though we're apart 
You're still my Best friend 